I must admit, I miss the feeling of having someone asking me, "Hey, what's wrong?"
And when I say "Nothing," he won't force me to spit it out. He'd rather tell me, "Come here." And he'd hug me and let me hold on to him until I feel okay. He'd know when I need comfort and he knows he can give it to me. He'd know words aren't needed. He'd know all I need is a hug.
But I know I must let go of that feeling... Or not really the feeling. Just the memories we shared that ignite this feeling.
When am I going to find someone who could comfort me the way he did... or better? Or shall I just wait for the right man to come?
I must admit, there's a bolt going through my heart when I see you express your feelings for her. Feelings that should've been for me. It hurts to see you share moments with her. Moments that could've been ours.
But I know I must let go of the could-have-beens. And I know I must force myself to think something or someone better will come my way -- if this is the only way I can divert my attention from you.
When am I going to feel nothing at all when I see the two of you? Or is it just my pride that's hurt when I see you? Is it wrong to think my pride's hurt because you found someone "better" than me? Is it wrong to think my pride's hurt because I can't believe there is actually someone better for me? Or must I just satisfy myself with the thought that we aren't meant for each other... That we won't make a good couple.
Maybe I should just be satisfied with the thought that Pisces and Virgo isn't a match made in heaven. Just so I can let go and move on.
Luminesshence
