One of my facebook stat says: masakit pala ang maipit sa pinto :S
comments:
my friend: malamang. haha.
me: ngayon ko lang naranasan eh. :D
my friend: common sense nalang un eh :) peace.
me: alam kong masakit. pero di ko akalaing ganito kasakit. parang pag-ibig yan. sa una, ang alam mo lang, masasaktan ka. pero pag ika'y umibig na, doon mo lang malalaman kung gaano talaga kasakit ang sugat na dulot nito. :D
dramatic me :))
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Friday, February 12, 2010
Today...
Today is a TIRIIIING day. From 11:30 am - 2:30 pm, I wasn't walking to my next classes. I was RUNNING, gliding, always saying "Excuse me" and always trying to fit into small spaces in order to get to my next destination faster.
I left my Comm 3 class at 11:30 and I don't want to be late for my Philo class, so I ran. When I got up to the 3rd floor, I realized I didn't have my water bottle with me. (If I wasn't panting, I won't realize it's missing. I left it in our Math classroom, 7-8:30 class.) So, I was trying to call my friend, to ask him if he can get the bottle for me, but he wasn't answering his phone. So I told my teacher I was going to go back to my previous class to get something I left. She told me: "Go! RUN!". Okay. I went down to the first floor again, but he wasn't there anymore. I ran up to the 3rd floor again, and called up another friend of mine, hoping he was with the friend I mentioned earlier. He wasn't with him, but this second friend was in the Math building where I left my bottle! How LUCKY!
After my Philo class (1:00), I ran to the Math building. I asked the "Care Best" man about the Lost & Found corner. He asked me what I was looking for, and he told me that the man in charge of our classroom wasn't there yet. So, I waited. 20 minutes. There he was! He accompanied me to the "Lost & Found corner" and I GOT IT BACK! :)
Then, my friend (the very first one I mentioned) was worrying about something. He needs a full body picture, so I sort of "volunteered" to help. We met at 2:15 pm (great. 15 minutes before my next class.) and I helped him out. For 15 minutes, I became a "photographer". I arrived at 2:35 pm. Not too late, but I missed something. I didn't regret it though. I am glad to have helped him :)
There. A tiring but happy day :)
I left my Comm 3 class at 11:30 and I don't want to be late for my Philo class, so I ran. When I got up to the 3rd floor, I realized I didn't have my water bottle with me. (If I wasn't panting, I won't realize it's missing. I left it in our Math classroom, 7-8:30 class.) So, I was trying to call my friend, to ask him if he can get the bottle for me, but he wasn't answering his phone. So I told my teacher I was going to go back to my previous class to get something I left. She told me: "Go! RUN!". Okay. I went down to the first floor again, but he wasn't there anymore. I ran up to the 3rd floor again, and called up another friend of mine, hoping he was with the friend I mentioned earlier. He wasn't with him, but this second friend was in the Math building where I left my bottle! How LUCKY!
After my Philo class (1:00), I ran to the Math building. I asked the "Care Best" man about the Lost & Found corner. He asked me what I was looking for, and he told me that the man in charge of our classroom wasn't there yet. So, I waited. 20 minutes. There he was! He accompanied me to the "Lost & Found corner" and I GOT IT BACK! :)
Then, my friend (the very first one I mentioned) was worrying about something. He needs a full body picture, so I sort of "volunteered" to help. We met at 2:15 pm (great. 15 minutes before my next class.) and I helped him out. For 15 minutes, I became a "photographer". I arrived at 2:35 pm. Not too late, but I missed something. I didn't regret it though. I am glad to have helped him :)
There. A tiring but happy day :)
Saturday, February 6, 2010
On Love and Confusion
Would you rather stay in a commitment with one person even if you don’t feel the same way he does for you? Or, would you break up, and get close to someone else even if there is only vagueness in the feelings you have for each other?
Would you rather be the one who loves or the one who will be loved?
Let us take these two options into consideration.
First, you stay in the commitment. There, you can feel security. You know that you are being loved. There, you are sure of what the other person is feeling. You know there is someone you can run to. The point is that person’s feelings for you are clear, and you know that you are loved.
Second, you break up and get closer to someone else. Wake up! You don’t feel happy in that relationship anymore. You two can be friends, and if you break up, at least he’ll know the truth. It would be too hard on him if you continually lie about “loving” him. I guess the other person is already your friend, and you feel really comfortable with him. You act sweet to him and he’s also sweet to you. BUT, there is no clarity between you and that other person. You really don’t know what he is truly feeling. Well, at least you’re happier with that person. Wouldn’t it be easier to build a relationship with someone you’re comfortable doing anything with than with someone whom you can label but you don’t really have feelings for?
It’s not really about the ease or comfort of DOING things. It’s about the ease and comfort of BEING with a person. It is also about what you truly feel. There’s no use in lying to yourself. It will just hurt you and the people who really love you (well, not necessarily romantically).
You can choose, and make sure that choice of yours is something your heart and mind has finally decided upon.
Would you rather be the one who loves or the one who will be loved?
Let us take these two options into consideration.
First, you stay in the commitment. There, you can feel security. You know that you are being loved. There, you are sure of what the other person is feeling. You know there is someone you can run to. The point is that person’s feelings for you are clear, and you know that you are loved.
Second, you break up and get closer to someone else. Wake up! You don’t feel happy in that relationship anymore. You two can be friends, and if you break up, at least he’ll know the truth. It would be too hard on him if you continually lie about “loving” him. I guess the other person is already your friend, and you feel really comfortable with him. You act sweet to him and he’s also sweet to you. BUT, there is no clarity between you and that other person. You really don’t know what he is truly feeling. Well, at least you’re happier with that person. Wouldn’t it be easier to build a relationship with someone you’re comfortable doing anything with than with someone whom you can label but you don’t really have feelings for?
It’s not really about the ease or comfort of DOING things. It’s about the ease and comfort of BEING with a person. It is also about what you truly feel. There’s no use in lying to yourself. It will just hurt you and the people who really love you (well, not necessarily romantically).
You can choose, and make sure that choice of yours is something your heart and mind has finally decided upon.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
On Trust and Anger
In an instant, a decision was made. It was a hasty one though.
At first, it all went well. I was “happy” then. I thought I could control my feelings just so I won’t hurt someone else. And, I thought I have learned how to do it, but I was wrong.
Soon, I can’t even tolerate that person’s behavior. Seeing that person became so annoying. It’s as if every move, every word that comes out from the mouth, every gesture, gets through my nerves. Again, I become really annoyed. So I decided to end everything that is going on between us.
I thought, after that, we could be friends. But again, I was wrong. There was never a day that we didn’t speak to each other frankly. Whenever I would say anything, that person would just reply with an even angrier tone. And I would reply with an angrier tone… And the fight will go on.
Sometimes, I just want to slap that person in the face and tell that person that I am feeling really violated by the way that person speaks at me, but I simply can’t. I know I am doing the same thing to that person. And a fight will soon rise again.
Our world is a silly place. The person you might just think could be your best friend turns out to be one of your enemies. As we grow older, we realize that it also becomes harder for us to trust everything to someone because any person whom we think can be our pal can just turn his/her back on us and spill our secrets. It’s harder to fight with someone who knows your weakness. But I’m glad that sometimes, I just can’t really show my true self to someone. Probably my mind knows whom to trust, even if my heart sometimes contradicts it.
At first, it all went well. I was “happy” then. I thought I could control my feelings just so I won’t hurt someone else. And, I thought I have learned how to do it, but I was wrong.
Soon, I can’t even tolerate that person’s behavior. Seeing that person became so annoying. It’s as if every move, every word that comes out from the mouth, every gesture, gets through my nerves. Again, I become really annoyed. So I decided to end everything that is going on between us.
I thought, after that, we could be friends. But again, I was wrong. There was never a day that we didn’t speak to each other frankly. Whenever I would say anything, that person would just reply with an even angrier tone. And I would reply with an angrier tone… And the fight will go on.
Sometimes, I just want to slap that person in the face and tell that person that I am feeling really violated by the way that person speaks at me, but I simply can’t. I know I am doing the same thing to that person. And a fight will soon rise again.
Our world is a silly place. The person you might just think could be your best friend turns out to be one of your enemies. As we grow older, we realize that it also becomes harder for us to trust everything to someone because any person whom we think can be our pal can just turn his/her back on us and spill our secrets. It’s harder to fight with someone who knows your weakness. But I’m glad that sometimes, I just can’t really show my true self to someone. Probably my mind knows whom to trust, even if my heart sometimes contradicts it.
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