I guess I'll start by thanking you for everything. Those little acts of love you've shown, they'll never be forgotten. On your shoulders I've cried too many times about things only you could understand, and even if you don't you never failed to make me feel better. You treated me like a princess. You always wanted me safe. I don't know if you have a dictionary full of words of encouragement for me. You're one of the few people who actually believed in me and my talent.
It's been almost a year now. It's been almost a year of watching your pain, but I know I can do nothing about it. I can't force myself to keep away from you. Even if I know I'm only hurting you, I can't forget the fact that we're friends and you'll always have this special place in my heart.
I've seen you get hurt by knowing I've been with this guy and that in this place and that party. I've seen you keep everything to yourself but I know your pain. I've seen you try to distance yourself from me too, but I keep coming back to you and everything falls back again, right?
It's been almost a year now -- almost a year of you showing me how you care, me neglecting everything you've done, you trying to forget how many guys I've been with and me, continuing to increase that number.
I've taken you for granted and I'm sorry for that. Don't ever think I never appreciated you. I'm really sorry but I can only love you that much. I can only love you as a friend.
Luminesshence
